gajal collection..... II

 1.

sadhai bhari swora timro sunu sunu laagchha ache

lakhaa ye harek palaa timrai tasbir taakchha achel

bhawanaa ni chaal bani mana bhitrai lahaarauchha

taranga ko lahara tyo timi tirai bhaagchha achel

maanaspatal bhari timrai samjhanaaka pratibimba

achaanak aaye timi bolaauchyeuki laagchha achel

bhaadheko thye manabhitra sara aafno manovaa

bhabaadha futaai achanak bandhan sara naagchha achel

ahile samma murti saamu kahileni jhukya thyiena

aakha chimli manamanai timrai khushi maagchha achel

guffa laagthyo haasa uththyo prema ka ti sabdha haru

gajala mai mera sabdha joona taara jharchhan achel....

2.

anjaana na mai mutu maajaha sajayechhu timlai

bhitra bhaitrai maanki raani banayechhu timlai

maaya ko amrit timi pokhinchau ki katai bhani

saanai mero hridaya bhittra ataayechhu timlai

sapani ma bhete timlai needarima haraaudaa

haata samaai naudaada ni katayechhu timlai

kalpanaa ko gagana yo uchalidai chha ajhai

bhawanaa ko changaa banai uddayechhu timlai

sundarrtaa ki devi timi tasbira mai puja garchhu

laaglaa aafnai najar bhani lukayechhu timlai

holi ko deena aajaa bhetna akhir napayeni

maana maa preeta le nai rangayechhu timlai

                                                                                                           March 8, 2012

gajal collection... I

  1.

gajal lekhchhu vanekothye,sabdai haraye

korda kordai sabdaharu, vaavai haraye

bujhaunu thyo timilai,kehi maanka kuraharu

sher ani kafiya ma,aafai haraaye 

kasari vanu aaja manka kura timilai

pratek sher thapdai jada,laye haraye

nalekheko haina maile tiro laagi gajalharu

sunaauchhu bhandabhandai,paanai haraye

duniyale jatisukai needarr chas bhanepani

 timi samu otha kholne, aatai haraye

vete vani katai timlai,hola k halat mero

tasbeer nai herya thiye, hosai haraye

nikleko thye gharbata,katai pugchu vanikana

timro baare sochda sochdai,baatai haraye

gahira bhav vetchhu timra ti rachana maa

kabita ra gajal paddha,tetai haraye

lekhe gajal timrai laagi,vawana yo pokhchu vani

anautho tyo bichar maile, katai haraye

2. 

baadala bhai udnu kati,varsha vayi jharnu nai chha

charko jwala baalcha kati, kharani ta hununai chha

thahai napai aafano maanma timilai sajayechhu

timlai maanma rakhnu kati,akhir yo maaan badhnunai chha

timra mitha samjhanale,furunga chha yo maan mero

muskuraunu aaja kati, akhir aasu jharnunai chha

aaucheu timi sapani ma, maya ko yo diyo baalna

sapani mai bhulnu kati,yethartha ta bhognunai chha

mahasus ta mani garchhu,mutu maajha timilaai

najikinu aaja kati,akhir taada hununai chha

adurai chha maan ko icchya jati gajal lekhe pani

sabda jati thape pani,vaavha akhir maunanai chha

3. 

haaso mai udechhu ma,sachho kura bolda aaja

arthahin bho mero boli,manko kura kholda aaja

antarmaan mai dubi rahe,chupchap thye sadhaibhari

pachuto bho abba malai, maunata lai todda aaja

ekkohoro hedthye sadhai,jindagiko goreto maa

tei batoma farkaaidiyeu,timi tirai modeda aaja

roje sadhai sangharsha nai,khape dherai dukha peeda

aashu mai dube feri,khushi rojna khojda aaja

yesai bhanna sakdina ma,afnaa mankaa kura haru

mero bhaawa bhujenau ki,gajala ma bolda aaja

aakaasha ko juna timi,dhulo raichhu dharti ko ma

dharatal le taani diyo,chandra chhuna uddaa aaja

4. 

nepathya le dharti akaash,chutyaidido raichha akhir

uchai chade dharatal le,taanidido raichha akhir

parkhi rahe kahile sahi,samaya tyo aaula bhani

dhilo huda samaya le,sath chhodo raichha akhir

hridaya le bol bhanthyo, chupchap rahe tesbela ma

maunata le aafnai maanlai,antai moddo raichha akhir

prasta paarna sakenachhu, bhawana lai timi saamu

dodhare yo maan le garda, mutu poldo raichha akhir

sojhai bhanna sakina ni,ghumauro kura gare

aafai tyo bhumarima,haraunu raichha akhir

bhanna khojda aaba timle,arkai bato rojechau ni

bikalpa nai narahesi, pachutaunu raichha akhir....

5. 

gajala mai bhayepani,sambhodhan chha timrai laagi

padera ta hera yeslai,vawanaa chha timrai laagi

dhekhenau ki najara le,bhitri aakha kholi hera

mitha ti kalpana ma , bacheko chhu timrai laagi

kahile kahi malai pani ekaichina suni hera

chaati bhittra mutu mero,dhadkidinchha timrai laagi

adarsha hau timi mero,paani hau pyasha metne

aakhabhari aashu lukai, muskurauchhu timrai laagi

sansaar saara bhuli dinchhu timro ekk muskaana maa

deuta maajha haata jodi, khushi magchhu timrai laagi

timi meri hunai parchha, bhandina ma kahile pani

aafna maanka sara ichhya, maaridinchhu timrai laagi

adheri ma sath chodne,chaayaa sari haina hai ma

moti dana aashu puchhne, rumaal banchhu timrai laagi

 6.

nasodhe ni hunchha malai, maya kasto hunchha bhani

baru sodha  avaabha ko,vyetha kasto hunchha bhani

nasodha hai kasto hunchha,samjhanaa kaa saajha haru

baru sodha voko petko,raata kasto hunchha bhani

prema prapti kasto hunchha ,kahilei ni nasodhnu hai

baru sodha hepiyera,baachhdaa kasto hunchha bhani

nasodhnu hai tei mayako,mahatwa yo jeevana maa

baru sodha aamaa ko tyo, aasu kasto hunchha bhani

 thahaa chaina gulaafa ko,ranga ani baasana tyo

baru sodhaa kaadaa le ti,ghochda kasto hunchha bhani

mithaa baata mayalu ko,kasto hunchha thahaa chaina

baru sodha vaghyako tyoo,laata kasto hunchha bhani

ichhyaa ani chaahaana ko,artha thahaa chaina malai

baru sodha baadhyataa ko,swada kasto hunchha bhani

maayaa ko tyo pankha boki,jaandina ma taara jharna

sodha pratyek paaila maa,laada kasto hunchha bhani 

7. 

k saino le bolau timlai,almalinchhu aaja bholi

timrai yaad ma tolayera,ekorinchhu aaja bholi

bhoka chaina pyasaa chaina,needa chaina ankhaama ni

raata bhari kolte ferdai,chatpatinchhu aaja bholi

uraath laagdo jeevanaa ma,foola ropedai aayeu timi

tehi sundaar bagaichhaaq ma,harauchhu aaja bholi

dekhya chaina prasta maile,nanai sune swora timro

tashbir timro herda herdai,deen kaatchhu aaja bholi

yo maan thiyo khaali paana,timi aayi ranga bharyeu

rangeena tyo chitra ma ni,timlai dekhchhu aaja bholi

aasha boki aayeu timi,bairaagi yo jeevana ma

sukeka yi ootha kholdai,muskuraauchhu aaja bholi

poornima ni laagthyo malai,niraash tyo kaala ratri

timro yaad ma aaushima ni ramaudaichhu aaja bholi

astitwa nai k thyo mero,timi aaunu bhanda aghi

vaawanatymak sparsha le,sampurna chhu aaja bholi

8. 

aafanta ko maajha ni ma,yeklekochhu kina hola

tasbeer timro herda najar,tolaayeko kina hola

aayeu mero jindagimaa,thahai napaai kahaabaata

gumaaune pirle nayan,rasaayeko kina hola

othale ta bhanidinchhu,chindina ma timilaai

hridaya ma timro naama sajaayeko kina hola

timrai baare maan ma khelchha,anekau kura achel

vekta garna nasakera, lukaayeko kina hola

ko hau timi mero laagi, nakaarna ta sakdina ma

gajal lekhdaa laya timro, misayeko kina hola

bipanima chaayirancheu, timi mero aakha bhari

khojdai timlai sapanimaa,barrbarako kina hola

baaduli laagda achel, laagchha timle samjhiyeuki

bina artha yeklai basda, muskurauchhu kina hola

bhulechhu ni aafai lai,samjhida ma timlai achel

samjhanaa ma timro yo maan, harayeko kina hola

 

                                                                                                                       March 6, 2012

mero sunaulo bihaani

 

anaayaasai ma udna laagechhu

dharatalko yethartha lai bhulera

aafno kartabya bata bimud bhayera

ma bhulechhu katai saansaarik ramjham ma

gumayechhu katai aafna sapana haru laai

nepathya ko tyo chiteez laai bhulera

aakash ko taara lai aafno thanna lagechhu

jaba ki ma ajai nirdho chhu

kewal yeuta nirrdho maanish.....

kasai prati vertha ko chaaha rakhechhu

samaye bhandaa pahilai udna kojechhu

jaba ki mero pankha ajai laageko chaina

jaba ki maile uddan bharna jaaneko chaina

sachai vertha thiyo tyo mero chaahaa

aadharheeen thiye mera sabb sapana haru

tita kevaal mera nindraa ka upaaz rahechhan

nindra mai rechhu ajhai maa.....

vaastab maa ma ta ajai bandhan mai chhu

mukta bhayeko chaina ajai tyo karagaar bata

tyo nirvartaa ko kaal kotharima ma ajai thuniyeko chhu 

aafno yesh yetharthako baato batama bhagna lagechhu katai

jaha bata yeuta kiran aayirahechha

ma bhuliyechhu tei ujhyalo maa

birsiyechhu ki tyo ta kewal yeuta jhiko ho

jo kehi paal mai nibhna laageko chha....

birsiyechhu bihana ajai bhayeko chaina

jun bihaana ko malai pratikshya chha

jaska lagi meri aama le kati sapana sangaaleki chan

kati thandi kaa ahderi raat haru ma pashina chuhayeki chan

tyo sunaulo bhihaniko laagi, mera laagi...

ajai sahanu chha raatkaa anekau kathinai haru

badnu chha agadi,nedarr bhai jujhnu chha

ti pratek badha adchan lai paltayera

aafnai naya raajmarga tayarr garnu chha

jasle malai puryaune chha tyo safaalta ko shikhar maa

jasle meri aamako akhaa ka dhukha udaaunechha

ra tyo deen ma hridaya batai muskuraune chhu......

tesaile malai uthnu chha

jagaunu chha antaraatmaa lai

path bata hateka ye paila lai disha dinu chha

selayekaa mutu maa feri salkaunu chha yek jhilko

ra bispot garaunu chha yo jwaalaamukhi

taba hunechha yeuta naya kiran

taba aaunechha mero pratikshya ko sunaulo bihani..

                                                                                                                  March 5, 2012

gajal lekhna khojeko struchure bigriyera poem nai banechha...

   

झुक्दै छ आकाश अनि भासिदैछ धर्ती आज

हराएको मर्यादा संगै गुम्दैछ अब लाज

सामाजिक मन्यता त रुडिबादमा पुरिएछ

आधुनिक भेलबाडिले पुरिदै छ नेपल आज

छोटिएछन् फरिया अनि हराएछन् चोलि आज

दौरासुरुवाल् मसिएछन् उड्यो शीरको टोपि आज

पसिना नि गनाउने रे अत्तरले भिजेपछि

पहरो चड्ने वीरलाइ पाखे भन्दा लाग्ने लाज 

इमान्दारी बेचिएछन् भ्रस्ट भयो समाज आज

सतीको सरापले नैतिकता नि मर्‍यो आज

छितीजको घाम संगै भावना नि डुबेपछि

पग्लिएको हिमाल संगै च्यतिएछ झन्डा आज

सुत्न नदेउ उठाउ जगाउ मनभित्रको नेपाल आज

नैतिकता को पाइला टेकि राष्ट्रियता जोगाउ आज

बाच्नु को के अर्थ होला पहिचान नै घुमे पछि

नेपालको गौरब बोकी लम्कनु छ संसार् माझ

                                                                                                              February 23, 2012

as the golden flame dies.....

 looking at the candle's burning thread

viewing the golden flame at top

stil, calm and peaceful it is

as it spreads the feeling of peace.

student may find knowledge there

love blossoms to romantic couple

salvation of soul from lifeless body

emotions flowing poetic hearts..

but i do find devotion in it

and feel the pain of burning soul

as discipline and tolerance shakes my mind

then i find holiness of lord over them

the one which is purest of all

whose warmth of truth pinches my heart

whose sparks wakes me from the soul

and pushes me to fight for my life

i feel the life as the wax melts

the tiny beginning flame reflects the birth

the hurdles as the flame shakes

and the happiness as the flame broadens

flame goes down; mild and slow

leaving the darkness behind with me

and bid me farewell forever then

i see the death as the flame extinguishes

i find the end as the golden flame dies....

                                                                                                                                                            February 18, 2012

i am the man

when heart seems a bit heavy

and when it pains a lot

pity that i can't cry 

that i can't show my tears

because i am a man

yes! the same man i am

who can't let down the head

neither can drop the almond shaped tears

even if every feeling melts

or the eye ball sinks into tears

i can't drain that liquid away

and let it roll down my cheeks

because i am the man

the same manhood stands again

holding the tears in reserve of eyelids

never ever leting it to touch the ground

the same liquid would form iceberg oneday

and scratch my heart everytime

but i cant scream for the pain i feel

because i am the man

yes the same man walks again

the one who is loosing humanity

the feeling of love, emotions od happiness too

getting harder but hollow inside

still i am the man, the same man

the one waiting for the moment of freedom

to live a real life and survive once more

the one with fun and emotions with it....

                                       February 18, 2012

the poetic note IV

 

Within the dead fire and ashes;

There still resides a spark;

The tunnel of complicationns,

 Still hides a light ahead.

Higher are the dreams,

Greater will be the aspirations;

More than everything,

Lies my hope today.

No matter it’s a dark night,

I shall wait for the morning rays;

Tearing all the black clouds,

The rain will fall someday.

Once again I shall sing for you,

Fill up the pages on your name;

Dream you whenever I close my eyes,

Stay still and waiting ever and after….

                                                                                                                July 5, 2011

the poetic note III

   

Despite having the eyes, I can’t cry,

Holding all the pains, I can’t scream;

All can I do is hold on & stand still,

And let it go, as it is.

Standing upon the grave of mind,

Leaving all the wishes and desires behind,

Ready to dump the dreams so dear;

No one to see, cry and hear……..

                                                                                            July 4, 2011

the poetic note II

 

I wish I had the heart

Made up of stony flakes

And the mercury to flow about

All the tissues and nerves

The spongy eyes to hold all tears,

And a remote to control the nightmare;

I wanna give birth an actor in me,

To pretend as a blind, who can’t see.

I am puzzled oh! dear my mate,

Whatever it is destiny or a bad fate;

For each and every step I take,

No sign of light just darkness ahead.

What else now, can I do,

Nothing except dreaming you;

Crying in front of god, oh lord!!

Just an idol of lifeless mud.

Singing your song along the way,

Fixing the target reaching nowhere;

To get rejected has become a fate,

Love is the word , the most I hate.

                                                                                         July 1, 2011

A poetic note

I too have a heart that also beats,

Wanna  live more than taking a breath;

Searching the happiness out of fainful fate,

But who cares weather I am alive or dead.

It was just a bubble that brusted to nothing,

Handcuffed & bounded I am just a human being;

Smashed into pieces the fake dreams & feelings,

Love is the word that just suits the sayings.

Taking an oath, oh god!! I swear,

Forget the pains just as nightmare;

 no longer shall I remain emotional slave,

Dumping  the hearty feelings into the grave........

                                                                                                         July 1, 2011 

Darkness and Dreams

why should i open my eyes again

if the shelfishness is to engrave my life again

why should i unlock my eyelids again

if it scratches my heart and calls the tears to flow

why should i get out of my dreams again

if the same pain will pave my journey ahead

why should i wish for the light rays

if it is darker than the black inside

cleaner than my reality is my dream

sacred than that light is my darkness

even its virtual,it smells the truth

even its imagination, it sprays the smile

even its dark its pure inside

even i am alone, i am satisfied

lighter than the feather i feel

higher then the sky i fly

let me close my eyes,i shall remain pure

and keep me away from impurities of light

let me fly in dreams, i wanna go higher

i don't wanna walk on that thorny ground again...

                                                                                               June 23, 2012

ThE SiLeNce ... ........

Are you the one who is here to heal me?

Out of the wound that I emotionally grew myself,

And rescue me from the grave of isolation;

My own loneliness that i probably chased myself.

And finally set me free from the bars of humiliation,

Crushing all those walls of grief and feeling of helplessness;

So that I could breathe my share of social air,

And proudly say I am on the same sky where you fly,

Feel the same ground where you all lie….

Or are you the opposite one born against me??

the one intended to hit me hard and hurt me??

through the same knife that had wounded my feelings,

tore my dreams without a tiny droplet of mercy,

resulting a great suffocation that I had gone through earlier;

If I am right, please don’t try to stop me again,

from scratching the scars to revive the same pain,

and let me stay here inside this grave;

rather at once crush me into pieces and dump me out,

I would have no complaints if you do so,

No grief as it would be the greatest gift I ever get,

And blessed with the peace I have never felt……..

 But most of the times I am confused about you,

As a pendulum moving to overcome the rain of suspense,

Either it would blow away the paradise I created?

Or the same which had brought a new life?.. a new beginning!!

May be you are nothing and you never exist,

Just a meaningless stone where I unknowingly stuck;

Either to find a devil created to hurt or worship it as a god.

So dear silence!!!  Please leave me and set me free,

Remove the mask of suspense and let me know your identity;

I won’t react knowing whoever you are, whatever you do,

Doesn’t matter whether you will pave the freedom of happiness,

Or turn wild with tsunami to blow me towards the depth of loneliness…...

                                                                                                        December 23, 2013